This post is going to be different from most, and a little personal. I just wanted to take a moment to share a new emotion that waved across me recently… and it’s the feeling of falling in love with an animal I never thought I would love.
For almost 24 years of my life, I never knew what it felt like to own a pet and truly care for it… and love it like it’s family. Like really, as in, if I had to part ways with it like I had to my brother or parents, for example, I would have a similar reaction (forever changed and probably depressed for life). I have heard sad stories of other people having to deal with this, but I could never personally relate. Having been raised in a very practical family, mum and dad taught my brother & me to not own any pets until we had our own place and a stable lifestyle (just like how most parents discourage their kids from having kids until they’re financially & emotionally ready!). As a child, I couldn’t understand why my parents would not let us get a cat or dog like we had wanted, while all my friends seemed to have their furry friends to play with. I think that owning and raising pets as kids can definitely have its pros (I still wish I was able to have this experience), but at the same time, today, I am thankful for my parents essentially teaching me to be a responsible parent, by raising me the way they did.
I never thought too deeply on this subject, until very recently. As mentioned on Tuesday, Potter & I are preparing to start a life together in LA, but unfortunately, moving can get really tough and stressful with pets. I won’t get too into it, but basically, when faced with the idea of having to part ways with our Chinese water dragon, Babadook, I cried seemingly forever (when not shown on my face, it was in my heart and soul). I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I was so stressed, and sad, and felt like life was taken away from me. I felt hurt & powerless. I had nightmares about Babadook getting hurt somehow. 🙁
The crazy thing is, the day we adopted him, on April 12, 2015, I told Potter we shouldn’t adopt him, because we’re going to be moving to LA together soon and won’t be able to take him with us. He insisted we’d find a way… but the cage he has grown in is so gigantic and difficult to move. There is just no way we could move that huge cage into any apartment without raising any red flags. We ended up adopting him anyway, because he was so determined! He happily welcomed Babadook into our little family, while I was having a hard time getting used to him.
I never thought I would love this reptile so deeply and so much, because I’ll be honest, I’m usually not a fan of reptiles (quickly growing on me suddenly though, to my surprise). The world of reptiles is/was foreign to me; I would shudder at the idea of having to feed live worms and roaches to Babadook (I fed him worms for the first time this past weekend… roaches will take a bit of warming up to). This is probably the first time my motherly instincts have really kicked in. I feel different, almost like I have my own child and am responsible for the reptile we CHOSE to adopt into our little family. I couldn’t bear thinking about having to give him away to potentially, someone who would not take good care of him, or even torture him (I hate to think about animal cruelty, but recently saw news about a catnapper torturing kittens! How heartbreaking!). Potter was sad about the idea of having to possibly let him go, but he’s a guy and I still have not seen him cry. Ugh.
On the bright side, Potter is careful with/sensitive to my feelings & worked hard with me this weekend to find a way to keep our baby. Babadook is coming with us on our next journey! 🙂 We bought him a smaller cage and unfortunately had to downgrade him significantly, but at least now, he’s easily transportable! We’ll just have to get him another bigger cage when we’re settled in our new home. The next step is to find someone trustworthy to watch over our Babadook for 3 weeks while we’re on our road trip in December… we’ve come this far and I am trying to just keep positive thoughts and fingers crossed everything will work out.
Isn’t he cute?! More photos on Babadook’s Instagram which has quickly become my new hobby: @babadookpotter 🙂
My feelings are usually pretty predictable, but sometimes, I surprise myself! I do know what it’s like to love deeply, but loving an animal (a REPTILE!) this deeply is definitely a newfound concept/feeling to me. This post probably comes as a surprise to most of you, since everyone is so used to me just obsessing over sheep. I can’t begin to imagine what life would be like if I had my own human kid now… I would be one stressed/emotional mother.
This image & featured image by David Potter <3
Any passionate animal lovers out there? Have you ever been faced with having to (or possibly having to) part ways with your pet? How did you handle it?
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